mental-health

  • JUST FOR TODAY….DO YOUR WORK WITH DILIGENCE

    My brain told me this morning that if I restricted food today, I would feel better.  It also thought about going for a 10-mile run and wondered whether I could still do it and how it would feel after such a long break. Wow.  Where did that come from?  The last few days have felt… Read more

  • “OF COURSE, I’M PLEASED YOU NOTICED”

    Think of the last time someone paid you a compliment.  What was your reaction?   “Thanks, but it’s an old top that I’ve had for ages”.  “Thanks, but you wouldn’t say that if you saw me when I’ve just woken up”.  “Really? I think I look awful”.  “That’s not what I see in the mirror at all”.  Or, if… Read more

  • BEWARE OF THE DISUSED RAILWAY LINE

    Imagine you have gone for a walk in the countryside in an area with which you are not familiar.  You have been walking through fields and realise you are a little lost.  There are a few freshly trodden paths through the grass which head off in various directions, and there is also a disused railway… Read more

  • BE MARGARET

    Modern society puts us under enormous pressure to meet it’s ideals across all areas of life. This is ever more impossible to escape from in the social media age. We are bombarded by messages which invade our minds with perceptions of the ideal body shape and size, the hairstyle of the moment, on trend clothing,… Read more

  • YOU

    Yes you, the one who can’t stop thinking about food but can’t eat it either, the one who won’t sit still, the one living in the fog, the numb one, the exhausted one, the irritable one, the angry one, the one wetting yourself, the one who just wants it all to go away…..Perhaps all of… Read more

  • MANTENANCE OR RECOVERY?

    I can recall speaking to others after I’d been diagnosed with anorexia, whilst deliberating over treatment options, and admitting that I’d probably had an eating disorder for a long time.  I thought it was something that would always be there, but I was accepting of needing help at that moment in time so that I… Read more

  • WHOA THERE, STEADY ON

    It’s a jigsaw puzzle this recovery lark.  The starting piece has to be the food.  Whichever school of thought you subscribe to in terms of how eating disorders develop, I think it makes sense that food needs to be the starting point for recovery.  The brain needs to be well nourished to enable the deep… Read more

  • SHUT THE FUCK UP

    I’m not entirely comfortable with the concept of an ‘ED voice’ and it’s not a term that I use readily (ED = eating disorder). I do not hear voices inside my head.  I’m not psychotic or schizophrenic, nor do I have a shoulder imp whispering negative words into my ear. I’ve frequently heard it said… Read more

  • GO FORTH NAKED

    Maybe not stark naked.  I mean, if you have the body confidence to do so, then kudos to you and I’m jealous! No, I mean without the mask. One of my key observations worth noting this week has been linked to my upcoming return to work.  In many ways, I am excited, and I spoke… Read more

  • “JUST GET READY FI WORK, WORK, WORK, WORK, WORK”

    I love my job.  Not many people can say that and so I feel lucky that I genuinely enjoy what I do.  I was devastated at the thought of having to take time off for treatment after being diagnosed with anorexia. Since returning from a career break, in 2015, I had not had a single… Read more