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  • WAITING IN THE SHADOWS

    Eating disorders offer a sense of identity.   You can be skinny, you can be disciplined and you can be in control.  You can be anorexic.  I recognise that this was the case for me, and I’ve spoken about this in previous blogs.  Except that you are none of these things (well aside from skinny perhaps). … Read more

  • JUST FOR TODAY….DO YOUR WORK WITH DILIGENCE

    My brain told me this morning that if I restricted food today, I would feel better.  It also thought about going for a 10-mile run and wondered whether I could still do it and how it would feel after such a long break. Wow.  Where did that come from?  The last few days have felt… Read more

  • “OF COURSE, I’M PLEASED YOU NOTICED”

    Think of the last time someone paid you a compliment.  What was your reaction?   “Thanks, but it’s an old top that I’ve had for ages”.  “Thanks, but you wouldn’t say that if you saw me when I’ve just woken up”.  “Really? I think I look awful”.  “That’s not what I see in the mirror at all”.  Or, if… Read more

  • INNER CHILD

    My life is a gift, I must heal the rift, With my inner child, Disconnected, shameful of the wild, Within her nature, carefree, I became someone she was not meant to be. Look at her……. Full of fun and energy, Ideas and creativity. Will you share this with me? And teach me how to be,… Read more

  • BEWARE OF THE DISUSED RAILWAY LINE

    Imagine you have gone for a walk in the countryside in an area with which you are not familiar.  You have been walking through fields and realise you are a little lost.  There are a few freshly trodden paths through the grass which head off in various directions, and there is also a disused railway… Read more

  • DAD

    WARNING: THIS ONE IS DEEP. Today marks a significant milestone in my recovery: my return to work. Having completed my treatment programme four weeks ago, the ensuing decision to take some additional time before reintroducing work, has absolutely proved the right thing to have done.  The additional progress I have made in the interlude in… Read more

  • BE MARGARET

    Modern society puts us under enormous pressure to meet it’s ideals across all areas of life. This is ever more impossible to escape from in the social media age. We are bombarded by messages which invade our minds with perceptions of the ideal body shape and size, the hairstyle of the moment, on trend clothing,… Read more

  • YOU

    Yes you, the one who can’t stop thinking about food but can’t eat it either, the one who won’t sit still, the one living in the fog, the numb one, the exhausted one, the irritable one, the angry one, the one wetting yourself, the one who just wants it all to go away…..Perhaps all of… Read more

  • MANTENANCE OR RECOVERY?

    I can recall speaking to others after I’d been diagnosed with anorexia, whilst deliberating over treatment options, and admitting that I’d probably had an eating disorder for a long time.  I thought it was something that would always be there, but I was accepting of needing help at that moment in time so that I… Read more

  • WHOA THERE, STEADY ON

    It’s a jigsaw puzzle this recovery lark.  The starting piece has to be the food.  Whichever school of thought you subscribe to in terms of how eating disorders develop, I think it makes sense that food needs to be the starting point for recovery.  The brain needs to be well nourished to enable the deep… Read more