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  • JUST FOR TODAY….DO YOUR WORK WITH DILIGENCE

    My brain told me this morning that if I restricted food today, I would feel better.  It also thought about going for a 10-mile run and wondered whether I could still do it and how it would feel after such a long break. Wow.  Where did that come from?  The last few days have felt… Read more

  • “OF COURSE, I’M PLEASED YOU NOTICED”

    Think of the last time someone paid you a compliment.  What was your reaction?   “Thanks, but it’s an old top that I’ve had for ages”.  “Thanks, but you wouldn’t say that if you saw me when I’ve just woken up”.  “Really? I think I look awful”.  “That’s not what I see in the mirror at all”.  Or, if… Read more

  • DAD

    WARNING: THIS ONE IS DEEP. Today marks a significant milestone in my recovery: my return to work. Having completed my treatment programme four weeks ago, the ensuing decision to take some additional time before reintroducing work, has absolutely proved the right thing to have done.  The additional progress I have made in the interlude in… Read more

  • GO FORTH NAKED

    Maybe not stark naked.  I mean, if you have the body confidence to do so, then kudos to you and I’m jealous! No, I mean without the mask. One of my key observations worth noting this week has been linked to my upcoming return to work.  In many ways, I am excited, and I spoke… Read more

  • “JUST GET READY FI WORK, WORK, WORK, WORK, WORK”

    I love my job.  Not many people can say that and so I feel lucky that I genuinely enjoy what I do.  I was devastated at the thought of having to take time off for treatment after being diagnosed with anorexia. Since returning from a career break, in 2015, I had not had a single… Read more

  • GLIMMERS

    Recovery is a gradual and subtle process.  You don’t wake up one morning and feel better.  In the early days you can’t imagine ever feeling any different and even several weeks in, you perhaps even feel worse at times; you’re eating what feel like enormous amounts of food whilst your brain is screaming at you… Read more

  • WHY?

    DISCLAIMER:  two people can experience exactly the same scenario and their recollections differ.  What follows are my memories and my interpretations of life events and experiences and if they are not one hundred percent accurate, it matters not in the context of how they have shaped who I have become.  No blame is to be… Read more